curve a smile

salam

entahla kenapa, rasa hati ni macam dah kuat dah untuk semua,
pernah x rasa cam kita  ni memang dah determine, "ok this is it!"
rasa cam akan jalan dengan senyum, hayun2 tangan, kaki langkah dengan riang,
hujan ke snow ke jalan licin ke, kita akan okay, mind set kita "this is a very good day"..
cuba untuk positif in everything, 
air tumpah atas meja, kita boleh consider as one way to make sure our table is clean,
betapa kita cuba untuk jadi positif..
kita je ingat kita kuat.. 
doa hari hari supaya kuat, supaya ada semangat baru nk hadapi hari yg baru..
try banyak mende baru, consider as a distraction..
kita sangka kita kuat..

tapi on one day, bila trigger muncul, trigger yg memang slama nie dicari2,
everything will turns upside down,
semua yg ada dalam dada yg kita simpan, yg kita cuba untuk positif tu, rebut2 nak keluar, 
marah, nyesal, dendam, dengki, semua yang negatif tu ada.. semuaaaaa, tepis2 semua apa yg kita cuba untuk jadi kuat.. sesak dada, sesak akal.. sesak juga mata tahan air mata..
tapi, kalau dah perempuan, kalau dah emosi celaru gitu,
rebah jugak, x kisah la sapa ada, malu semua hilang, rebah..
semua air mata keluar, ada la seperigi, tapi nilah air mata yg akan jadi kekuatan, 
selama ni dia x kuat pon, dia belagak kuat je, konon x nak kuarkan air mata, konon ok je, padahal sedarkah dia, air mata ni lah jadi tangga untuk langkahan ke arah kekuatan?
ye, baru sedar..
diri ini x segagah yg disangka..

dan, ada org pesan, penerimaan orang terhadap sesuatu tu berbeza.. berbeza, cara orang view terhadapa satu benda yg sama tu berbeza.. so, jangan anggap semua org sama dengan kita, dan jangan cepat nak judge orang.. kita x penah tau apa yg dia rasa.. camne perasaan dia..
and yes, saket hati, dalaman nie lebey teruk kesannya dari saket fizikal..
i admit it.. 
rasa cam ada seribu jarum kecik, tikam hatini slow2.. pedih..

smalam, hati ni shattered, just like the frost that fall down from branches when u shake em.. 
tapi, once fooled, cukup untuk jadi pengajaran.. cukup yg amattt..

Allah nak beri amaran, kembalikan diri ini ke jalan yg benar..

sekarang, tiba masa untuk bangun kembali, ukir senyuman yg lama dah dipaksa ukir,, mula untuk belajar senyum secara ikhlas.. :)

saya dan dia

hey..
nnti jom kita gi jalan tgok aurora,
baring atas snow, tutup mata, bumbung kita langit, best kan..
pastu, kita pi hiking.. smpai rasa nk patah kaki.. then kita camping kat riverside.. or dkat waterfall..
then, kita gi star gazing, reading all the stars.. bwk telescope kecik satu..
kita gi theme park, bungee jump, sky diving, paragliding..

pastu.. ibrah.. kongsi cerita2 pasal sejarah2 islam dahulu.. cerita pasal pengembaraan para nabi dahulu, sahabat2..
i used to hate history, so, pimpinlah tgn ni, bawak sy kenal mereka juga...

sapa nk jadi travelmate saya? sape yg nk jadi tourguide, nk guide sy balek ke zaman kegemilangan islam?

sungguh, diri ni nk berubah.. pimpinlah, tariklah, akan sy ikut..
berceritalah selalu, akn sy denga..

it is the time

i had learn a lot of things in my life.. almost 23 years.. i get to know many people, some of them r worth my life while others are just passing by..

by the time i'm writting this, i realized that, what had happened actually is a reflect of my actions. and also realized that, we, as a youngster, need to seek for our parents's advices.. they live longer than us, and had a lot more wide view on everything that happened and whats going to happen..

it is the time for me to cherish a lil achievement in me.. i get to know the bad side of my good side. well, sounds as complicated as it is.. i thank Allah, because, He had show me something that hidden.. He try to save me from future self-destruction.. He try to open my eye to see the diamond.. alhamdulillah.. 

common sense

maaf,

satu word yg x semestinya semua orang sanggup nak cakap.. padahal word je, nak sebut bende laen boley, tapi nak sebut sorry/maaf kenape berat sangat terasa mulut nak bukak?

kadang2 dalam kehidupan seharian, kita x perasan dengan tingkah laku kita, elok ke x? baek ke x? menyakitkan hati orang ke x? tu lah, kadang2 orang senang terasa dengan apa yg terlepas dari lidah kita ni.. kadang2 kita rasa kita dah terbiasa cakap camtu kat dia, walhal, dalam sepanjang masa kita berkawan dengan dia, sepanjang tu lah dia cuba untuk bersabar dan pandang sebelah mata tentang apa yg buatkan hati dia terasa.. dia diam, dia senyap, sbb dia x mau cakap depan2, takut nnti terguris hati.. so silence..

silence is the best policy.. x kisahlah dalam apa pon bidang, silence. bila kita tahu or x tahu, pada certain2 masa kita kene remain silence.. as a sign of respect, or as a sign of protest.. x kesah.. ya, kadang2 kita perlu juga berkata-kata, tpi hanya pada kebenaran, bukan pada mende lagha..

kadang2, dalam nada kita bercakap, orang boley salah tafsir, bila kita tertinggi suara, or cakap x de koma n noktah, orang boley anggap kita sedang attack dia.. so belajarlah untuk bercakap dengan sopan.. klu dah terbiasa terjerit2 time bercakap, cubalah untuk perlahankan suara terlebey dulu, then, nnti2 bila dah jadi habit, cuba plak ubah nada suara.. and jangan buat suara annoying plak, kita gegirl kene jaga kata2, kang manja2 aurat plak.. so berpadalah.. nk bermanja, manja ngan parents or housemates ka, tpi bukan depan laki bukan muhrim.. boley mendatangkan pelbagai andaian

dan bila ada orang menegur kita, siap2 kan lah mulut kita dengan ucapan maaf n thanks.. maaf sbb kita dah terbuat mende salah, pastu say thanks sbb ada yg sudi nk tego kita.. bukan senang seseorang nk tego kita.. effort dia tu lebey sket.. so hargailah, jangan nak menyirap pulak, dia dah cuba untuk bawa kita ke arah kebaikan..

pastu, layanlah manusia laen, sebagai manusia.. sebagaimana kita hendak dilayan.. maksud kat sini, janganlah buat hmbar je klu kawan mintak tolong.. time kita mibtak tolong kita nak yg van der vas punya.. tapi bila tiba giliran dia mintak tolong, kita just buat ala kadar. EGO! masalah dalaman yg susah nak kikis.. tolonglah redha kan hati nak tolong orang n jangan nak ungkit.. bahaya! RIA'!

jangan terlalu taksub dengan kelebihan diri sendiri.. UJUB! bahaya, bahaya, bahaya...

dan kepada mangsa keadaan, SABAR! jika memang x de peluang utk orang tu datang nak minta maaf, sabar dah maafkanlah dia.. doakan hati menjadi lagi tabah..

saya menulis berdasarkan pengalaman.. berdasarkan apa yang saya perhatikan, lega..

avocado oil for oily skin

assalamualaikum,

today, i wanna share some tips about skin care,

i know my skin wasn't flawless either. but i try to keep up with it.. 

bad skin, or i can say bad skin week will worn out ur confident.. as a hijabist, i would wear some "closed my cheek" type of hijab when i had breakouts..

but, u shouldnt be ashamed with ur skin prob, well u might be a lil ashamed, and that is totally normal.. haha.. as i am too behaving like that.. but, u should carry ur confident too! 

oh oh, dun ever wear make up, foundation, concealer, chemical bla bla bla when u have breakout unless if that overnite treatment spot is really working out for u.. make sure ur face is clean and not dry.. moisturise it

for oily or combination skin with breakouts u need some oil.. yeah, that freaking OIL.. u need em.. some people might say that this is crazy and risky, because ur skin is oily, and had acne and breakout and oily and u wanna put some oil? what?? but yeah, oil will help u..

breakouts.. during this time, if we overdo our chemical routine like using a generous amnt if chem on our acne, it will make em worst! just us a lil amount of spot treatment.. and after that put on ur moisturiser.. if u dun moisturise ur skin, ur dry skin will think that they need extra moistures and they keep producing sebum, so instead of having clear dry skin, in just less then 30 minutes after washing, u find out, ur skin is more olily then before u wash em.. so moisturise is the key here..  the best oil for oily skin is avocado oil. yup, avocado!

avocado oil is non comedogenic oil and basically it's content is a lil bit less like our naturally produced sebum.. so it mimics our sebum.. it is also rich with fat solube vits which r ADEK.. and it can increase collagen production.. hence, when we apply avocado oil to our skin, our skin will not produce extra sebum as this avocado oil will restore and moisturise our skin all day long.. i can say my skin feel more soft and supple.. i only used it for a week, and it reduces some of hyperpigmented area.. i will keep up with it.. 

us only 1-2 drops.. pat on ur palm, clap it twice and gently massage ur face with them..yeah u will smell like avocado.. haha, but sokay.. and and dun us more than that, or u will turn out like shiny like 'orang minyak' lol.. i bought it at perfume decor for abt 100rubles i think.. and it really do the miracle.. alhamdulillah..

u can add em to ur fav moisturiser.. few drops to a bottle will do.. i will keep on updating my review on natural product.. i'm also on honey mask and olive oil.. peel off once a week.. and green tea.. and yeah, avocado oil.. go green, go organic.. promoting a healthy lifestyle..

gaining weight?

salam and hello

so, i had plannd my strict diet regime and exercise in order to lose some weight, and it turned out to be successful! alhamdulillah.. :) in just two weeks i lost 4 kilos.. and i do not consume any supplement or drugs or anything..

first of all. when there is a will, there is a way.. keep on holding to ur motto.. motivation is the best policy.. if u r motivated enough, u wouldn't cheat! i know i know, sometimes u just wanna be free and undisciplined urself, well, these will not benefit u at all, but these will cause u to gain more weight.

MOTTO.. set it up! for me, i choose: get back on track!

first of all.. dun skip ur meal n ur breakfast.. eat moderately, but not to much..

i start my day with a mug of green tea without sugar,

and eat something for breakfast, like hotdog or whatsoeva u want, but remember, eat moderately,

then, during lunch hour, i'll eat sandwich or bread or something like that.. cause i'm busy travelling from class to lecture, bread or simple snack will do.. remember to bring along a bottle of water with u.. drink a lot, A LOT.. yeahh.. 

then, when u r home, take ur dinner, for me, i just eat sesenduk nasi with lauk.. and drink a bottle of green tea.. then, i drink up tu 2litres of water per day.. before sleep, i would do some simple abs exercise.. light form..

repeat that regime for as long a u want or until u get ur desirable weight.. and ouh, i jogged every weekend.. 3 rounds.. hill climbing jogging i can stay.. rasa nk cabut paru paru letak kat luar kasi dia breath in semua oxygen kat situ, so tiredddddddddd and sweatyyy.. but worth it.. then, do some exercise for muscle.. do it intensively after jog.. like 20 squat, 30 sit up, bicycle ride act for 15.. do it repeatedly.. 

disciplined urself!! dun eat too much sweets and chocs! erghh, if lapa minum je green tea.. and insyallah, with istiqamah and usaha, u will lose ur weight.. stay fit, stay healthy! 

berat badan ideal dapat mengurangkan risiko penyakit kronik, mnjamin kehidupan yang sihat... :)

lain

lain orang, lain cara, lain hati,

ada orang yang senang je nak lupakan segala masalah, ada orang yang senang nak handle masalah, tapi lama lama dia terikat dengan sejarah dia sendiri, ada orang langsung x ley selesaikan masalah..

ada orang amek masa seminggu je nak move on, ade org x move on langsung, ade org move on separuh jalan je pastu buta mata..

siasat masalah tu perlu, tapi x wajib.. tapi kenapa ramai pilih utk terus siasat? walau pada akhirnya hati sendiri yang saket..

jangan percaya pada karma, tapi percayalah, bahawa apa yang kita buat kat orang, kita akan dapat balek, bila, kat mana dan macam mana, tu hanya Allah yang tahu..

kalau menangis sekarang pon x guna..  sbb x berharga orang kata.. 

x cukup lengkap lagi ke?

x pelah, bahagia orang laen, itu lagi membuatkan aku bahagia..

bahagia sendiri, biarlah tercari, necrosis dah hati ni.. smpai tahap gangrene da kot..