driving n driver

driving a car is an absolute satisfaction for a person like me.. i can control everything and i am in control of everything.. only u can decide which step to take.. these made us the driver the most crucial part on the road..

some reckless driver may cause a serious accident on road..  here we are talking about lil mistake, like x kasi signal time nk melintas, nak belok kanam kiri, lampu break x menyala, maen tekan je minyak tu.. haish.. after about 4 years pengalaman drive kete pegi balek kota bharu, memang byk reckless driver on road.. driving and a driver is a different thing, ur attitude as a driver will affect ur driving skill.. x semestinya dia tau drive dia a good driver ok!

paling pantang bila kita kat lane laju, kete nk bawak 40km/h. panas hati ni, n bila plak kita nak lintas dia, boley plak dia tekan minyak.. tapi tu lah, nak drive ni memang kene manyak bersabar.. :) yg jnis tiba2 belok without signal plak, memang geram, sbb kita tends tok drive laju imut kete dia, if dia tiba2 belok, mesti la nak terlanggar kan.. hurm, attitude drivers!!

and masa kita drive tu, kita kene selalu igt, bkan nyawa kita seorg je dalam tgn kita, nyawa of org kereta sekeliling kita pon dalam tangan kita sekali,, that is why, kene byk bertoleransi n bersabar.. tapi memang best pon tekan minyak till 100km/h.. memang best bawak laju, tapi bila jadi pape, kita memang x dpt nk kwl kete tu.. bahaya!!!

btw, pengalaman pling perit is time bawak kete n saket perut.. ya Allah, rasa cam nak campak kete pastu nak goleng2 tengah jalan ok.. lebey2 kalau senggugut.. peluh2 lam kete, otak x function, tpi kene fokus.. phew, so time x sehat, marah, emosi x stabil, jangan bawak kereta... selesakan fizikal n emosi anda dulu before bawak kete.. :)

of eisenmenger and transposition of great vessels

today, i started my summer practical at peads wards.. sebenarnye kene buat a and e, tapi x pe lah.. kebetulan tadi nak jadikan suprise, time dok masuk nak ikut ho n mo punya round, skali nmpak kak mas!! ya Allah, memang melompat2 lam ward tuu.. hehe, naseb baek kak mas cam lagi, walaupun muka ni dah x cantek cam dulu2.. T_T.. x pe.. yg penting kak mas cakap, buat praktikal biasa2 je, enjoy cuti tuu.. hehe, lap u kak mas!!

sebenarnya agak sedih bila tgok small kids sakit n they r really afraids of the doctors.. datang dekat nk pegang, dah nanges.. susah nk ases breathing rate, nk auscultate lung and heart.. nak tgok if ada splenomegaly or hepatomegaly pon susah.. tapi budak2 sgt comey.. hehe.. n specialist peads pon dah jadi cam budak2, semua kartun dia tahu.. :D

tadi ada dua patient yg menarik minat saya.. dua patient, yang even teringat kat diorg pon, dah boley senyum.. ada satu patient with down syndrome, about 11 years old, sagt funny n chubby... :D mula2 dia pakai high flow oxygen mask, which wayar mask tu dah pegi atas kepala dia cam belalai gajah dah.. hahaa, memang everybody gelak time tu.. comeyl, bila doc pgg katil dia, dia maen2 tgn doc tu.. alahaiii.. pastu tuka naso tube, skali dia maen2, letak kt dahi bagai.. haha, lupa letih jap.. and ayah dia sgt supportive. sgt playful dengan dia.. :) memang senyum manjang je tgok adik tu tadi.. and dia dah develop eisenmenger syndrome.. which dah ada clubbing hand, pulmonary edema, and right to left shunt.. so sad... cyanosis badly,,

then, ada one baby, dia ada transposition of great vessel, which right ventricle connect to aorta n left ventricle connect to pulm artery.. baby tu sgt2 cyanosis.. so small to endure the pain.. his mom memang nmpak riak wajah penat.. 24/7 .. force breathing which thorax dia memang dah deform.. sedey sgt., time blaja, igt x jumpa case ni, skali tgok depan mata n kat kelate plak tu., sedey sgt2222.. baby tu kelip2 je tgok kitorg..

overall, memang kesian kat baby n kids ni., tapi, they have to undergo several procedures like set iv line yang memang saket tu, makan ubat semua, so that they will get better and soon will be able to entertain themselves at the playground..  and this will eventually, ease their parents.. :)

cant wait to see those kids get their discharge form! lets pray for fhem..

hari ni pakai mask peel off dengan umi.. heheee

anxiety

al kisahnya, baru tahu diri. ni ada anxiety disorder..

masa flight lay over kat turkey, kitorg ada 40 minutes je untuk turun flight, cari gate dan naek shuttle dan naek flight balek.. ya allah, masa tu heart rate rasanya ada lam 90bpm.. =_=.. muka memang tense sgt, tpi naseb baek ada abg turkish airline yg escort kitorg pegi keja nex flight. tpi, masa tu memang tuhan je tau, camna rasa nak tertinggal flight n terfikir plak flight mas kat bangkok nanti burn, nak spend masa kat airport  bagai.. memang anxiety!!!! pastu dah smpai bangkok, 2.15 turun flight, nex flight ke kl 5.05.. memang dari sblom exam lagi dah cuak pasal gap masa ni..

hari hari cek flight status tgok on time ke tak flight, delay ke x, any short delay akan kacau schedule,.. cuak sgt, smpai rasa nk tuka tiket,, tpi naseb baek x tuka.. hehe.. btw, dok search kat tenet, semua org ckp airport bkk suvarnabhumi punya imigration ketat la, lama la, makan masa at least sejam la, turns out smalam from turun flight. to immigration, to amek cargo, it takes only 20 minutes max.. pastu drop bag kat counter.. memang sempat mandi kat bangkok, sblom flight kul 5.15 tu..

i dunno where did i inherited this anxiety disorder but i must control them starting from now! serius setiap sejam tgok flight stats pasal flight tu.. regime flight semua.. oh god!

perempuan

seriusly x tau pon selama ni sebenarnya pakai skirt tu best, oh god why???

kalau la tahu, memang belambak skirt akan dibawa from malaysia.. i had a lot of skirts back in my closet in malaysia, but i just buy them because they r cheap, and if i dont buy them, i might get an epileptic seizure.. haha, joking.. tpi beli just sbb dia murah, n nampak cantek n x pernah pakai.. apa lah

then tahun ni, time summer i just trying mix and match thingy with my skirt that i brought here.. and just rock em to class, turns out best! oi, best ok, sila paham.. summer so hot, skirt so flowy, best!! and baju kurung too.. they absorb sweats really well. i can say, like they had build in aircond in it or anything closed to that.. haha..

huih, skirt and me never gonna be good.. i tripped, stepped on, senget benget, but practices make perfect right? hehee

ok, nak jadi lebih perempuan lagi..

summer here

so, apa yang beza sgt summer in volgo and cuaca kat malaysia?
banyak bezanya.. ramai yg bila kita cakap, aih panas sgt lah kat sini, x tahan, adalah yg berpendapat bhw kami ni semua bagaikan kacang lupakan kulit,, noooo, kami ckp camtu, sbb tersangat kontra summer in volgo n cuaca di malaysia

so, here we go!
-u might be sweating- :p

1) sini cuaca panas dan kering
-which ur skin will dry up and flake
-scale, kene pakai lotion, if not, keringgggg cam psoriasis ok
-haba badan terkumpul, rasa panas smpai kepala
-kipas kadang2 bawak angin panas, so, panas sgttttttt
-pasang kipas pon panas lagi

2) tiada awan

exactly like this, no kidding..

-yes, no cloud, only blue sky
-no shades
-direct uv!!!
-direct sunburn and skin will get red n itches right away
-appreciate awan in malaysia!

3) cahaya sangat terik
-sbb x de awan, so the sun ray directly fries us
-pkai baju, rasa cam lepas baju tu kene iron
-duduk under sun ray, even lam bus, even less than 5 minutes dah mandi peluh
-panas!!!!! oh GOD!

4) kelas x de kipas
-kat malaysia kelas ada aircond,besttttt
-sini, kelas ada tingkap sahaja,
-imagine, sitting in a small room, with 35degree outside and no kipas, urgh
-literally a sauna

5) transport x de aircond
-so, people tend to smell
-smell plus kedap udara =  rasa nak pengsan
-peluh2
-profuse sweating u ge itt??

6) kering
-dahaga forever
-ice cream forever
-crack lips
-crack skins

7) byk jalan
-so mmg burn right away
-like walk for 30 minutes dah burn okkkkkkk
-kat mesia, naek keta, aircond, bestttt, shopping mall aircond, jam tengah jalan pon at least ada aircond kan hee

8) insects!
-kat sini ada serangga kecik yg akan follow u all pegi mana2
-kadang2 rasa ada yg tertelan kot
-T_T

9) kat rumah x de build in kipas
-panassssssssss
-beli kipas pun x cukup
-kene mandi lima kali sehari dengan air sejok

10) sgt222222 panas
-baju basuh tangan boley kering under 2 hours no kidding

11) waktu siang panjang
-mencabar, sbb subuh terlalu awal, like 2.40 am and isa' terlalu lambat like 11 pm
-sgt mencabar nak jaga waktu solat
-kene tebalkan iman juga

12) berhabuk, dusty
-buka tingkap, meja akan berhabuk in one day
-once a day, kene clean meja, or else, u will end up in a mess, ur notes covered with dust
-provoke acne, huish


so, ni yg boley list stakat ni..
SUNBLOCK is a must.. i even bawak payung.,. hahaha, i dun care what people say, but sun ray here is unacceptable. and i am 3 shades darker now due to dry skin n itches.. burn + red skin.. T_T

well, stay hydrated! need to drink a lot of water and kene tuka lotion on aqua base plak.. no oil for summer k, it will block the pores.. embraces summer hijabis!!

BRING OUT THE SHADES PEOPLE!

move on

some people might find it hard to move on, some people just need an adjustment, some people move on right away.. it depends on how actually you deal with it.. yeah, YOU..  and of course the reasons behind it..

well, actually i move on pretty fast, *is it?* well, on average i think people need some time, min would be 6 months.. but 3 months will do.. 

so, here are the steps.. WARNING! you might feel a lil nauseous and feel like u gonna loose your life.. i really mean it.. 

1)CRY

-tears are strength! 

-cry, cry, cry, and let it all out

-a day would be enough

2) remove them from ur sight

-erase their number

-unfriend on fb, twitter, insta, tumblr or what u can think of

-block their number

-avoid meeting them

*this step is very crucial, as u try to move forward, their sight will loosen ur faith

3)dont try to contact them, even u miss them like crazy or u might get v-fib if u dont, just DON'T

-dont reply any of their messages

-dont answer their call

-dont ever stalk them!!!! DONT STALK!

4)keep in mind what they had done to u

-this is very important, u must keep it in mind, u are not worth trying for something stupid!!!!!

-if they cheated, what are u insane?? remember

-dont be fooled by their lies

5) find a distraction

-kdrama would help a lot i think

-catch up you movies

-find your fav series

-karaoke

-hang out more

-hobby

-anything would do.. try something new

6) spend more time with your family and friends

-share everything with your family, trust me, they always help you

-listen to your friends more

-go crazy with em!

7)dont listen to break up song

-well u can listen to them for like 2 days. haha

-then, just go on with other songs

-happy and crazy songs will do

8) give more time to urself

-shopping online

-go for spa

-facial time

9) trust in God..

-the most crucial part in moving on is ur prayer.. :)

10)forgive and forget

-forgive all their mistake, this will put your heart at ease.. and forget it.. if u can.. :)

well, this is what i had been doing.. and it works well for me.. so yeah, dont ever turn back, just move along and put your aim high.. single life is the best gift i get so far.. never thought that it would be this expectation free.. 

btw, enjoy your life, dont let anybody tripped you on your way.. only you can change your life!

move on and start a new chapter.. dont waste ur time to look back and regret, move on with hope.. something happened for a reason..

p/s: hope this will help someone, someday.. 

something you can ponder.. 

hobby

so, i love gardening.. who else have the same interest with me hands up!!!

actually, every year balek, i will tanam something.. semai something.. and for two months i nutured them with all my love and left home.. so balek2 after 10 months, i only see empty pots at the exact place with the exact rotted plant, just like how i left it.. haha, well my parents had been busy, and they had to take care of many things, rather than my plants..

there had been cactus, aloe vera, keladi, every sort of keladi that i had known.. u know once i was very obsessed with this keladi thingy.. macam2 keladi i plant and they grew up so well.. even breed em.. pheww.. they still are there, at the pavement.. hehe, oh oh, lpe plak, tomato, watermelon, mangga, cili, lada besaq, erm, klu nak listkan rasanya satu entry mungkin.. haha.. tpi cactus tu memang antara yang main..

tpiiii, this time, abah did took care of my cili!! omg!! i semai  them in 3 polybag.. ada dua bag cili kampung and one is red small cili which i dunno what do we call it.. haha, x pe, tanam je dulu.. seeds of the cili kampung, i got em from one of my sis's friend.. he planted that cili in cameron highland, and they grew up excellently, well u cant really see where is the leaves cause the plant is full with cili! red, orange and white.. nice on eyes and good in budu.. yaw.. sedap nyaaaaa..

so, out of 3 polybag, abah took one polybag and plant em in a vase.. which yg kelaka, in one polybag tu ada la lam 17-25pokok.. haha, abah ckp, dia amek je tanam terus.. sbb x nak tgok pokok tu rotted.. haha.. lawak je, bygkan, pokok kecik2, lil space, berebut nk tumbuh sesama dalam vase? how funny is that! and the other 2 bags, abah gave to my grandma.. yeay!! anddddd, skang ni, in that vase that ada dua pokok yg berbuah., yeayyy!!! my cili had breeddddddd, they give childrens! oh god, x saba nk balek nak tgokkkkk..

umi did took care of my cactus this time.. yay!!! balek kali ni, i must pamper em all with baja organic, with good soil, argh, x saba nak plant more pokok lah gini! but sadly my tomato trees died.. once i used to grow em, musuh ketat pokok tomato is snail.. serius, they can eat up ur whole tree in one night.. but tomato manja, u kene support pokok tu with braces and they did need a lot of water... manja punya pokok.. cili senang je, cuma kene constantly jaga with air yg cukup, and letak tmpt yg ada shade.. :)

x saba nk tgok my pokoks! love umi n abah for taking care of my other half.. my trees..hehe